As you progress down the road to enlightenment, your false personality will begin to cause you pain, it does not like it that you are progressing and leaving it behind, so it starts to cause you pain in one way or another, your back or certain muscles in your body will be or get sore for no apparent reason, causing you much discomfort just to get you to stop what you are doing.
This is a part of the bio programming that has been prearranged before your life even started, it is there to test your mettle so to speak, another challenge placed to discourage you from ignoring your false life,
it is relentless and will stop at nothing to distract you from your focus, it wants you to quit what it is that you are trying to do, you see this game is played on level 10 all of the time, and it will not let up,
the best thing to do is to ignore the pain, especially if you know that there is no real good reason for it, and eventually, it will fade away.
There is also a possibility that the pain is due to "wrong thinking" or "wrong actions" on your part, and your soul is trying to modify your behavior in some way, in this case it is a good thing that you use your observant self to analyze your actions to see if you are making mistakes somewhere.
It may be completely unavoidable to have pain for one reason or another, I noticed that for most of my clueless life I was without pain, my false selves were happy with the status quo, but as soon as I began to lift that veil of ignorance and started to see the truth about reality,
the pain started, it wanted me to just stay in bed and ride it out until I got better like it was some sort of illness that needed to run its course,
an exercise of different types seemed to do something to a point, but the pain continued to return day after day whether I liked it or not, it seemed to be best to ignore it for the most part and ride it out until it was totally forgotten and finally went away.
The pain subsides when it realizes that that part of you has been changed and is not going to change back, but lo and behold it returns when you make a new revelation about your self or another change that one of your false selves just doesn't want to let go of,
it's continuous tearing down and building up a process that in my case anyways is painful, mostly annoying, I just look at it as being another test to see how dedicated I really am at finding the entire truth of reality.
JUST DON'T GIVE UP!, you were given free will for a reason, once you realize this and that there are no things that can sway you from your path, the behavioral modifications that you are trying to implement become easier and easier.
There will be times that you just cannot reason why you have pain and it just doesn't go away, it may also be that you are burning Karmic ribbons from some previous life, where you have to feel this pain to equal out the imbalance you created, possibly in this life time or a previous life where you gave someone some pain,
if you can ask your true self or God or your spirit guide to show you or explain why you have this pain, you may be fortunate enough to get an answer in the way of a visible encounter that explains the situation in a way that you may understand.
In my case one time, I was shown in a dream a sort of trough at the beach that went into the ocean and was being flushed by the waves, it had large rocks in it that were seemingly being washed by the surf coming in, it looked cool and inviting, I went closer and noticed that something shiny was washed ashore, when I looked at it, I noticed that it looked like an old mercury dime, but upon closer inspection I noticed that it really wasn't, one side was different and it was made of aluminum instead of silver,
in my mind, this told me that a false portion of myself was being washed away and cleared out, as if the trough was me and the waves were cleansing me, I all of a sudden thought that I would Fast for that day,
I really never had fasted before, even 24 hours, and for some reason, I felt like doing it now, it is hard to explain, but the fasting would be a type of spiritual cleansing that I needed,
also with my analysis from my observant self, I remembered that I had been having some discomfort in my stomach for the last couple of weeks, and I knew that my diet was not so bad,
I wasn't afraid since Gandhi had fasted for long periods over 30 days without permanent damage, I wasn't going to try to break any records, but I figured that 36 hours would be a good start, and then I would see about longer periods if the results were to my liking.
I understand that pain may be unavoidable as your enlightenment progresses, but when you understand that this may be required or expected especially if it is physically unwarranted and be the cause of something you may have an idea about, it should make it much easier, just hang in there and you will end up better for it in the long run.
I have also heard that pain is not at all necessary for enlightenment, but our souls use it because it is effective for thought or behavioral modifications when the stubbornness of our thoughts and actions are delaying our progress.
By the way, after my 36 hour fast, the back pain and stomach discomfort had completely disappeared, I have tried to make fasting a regular spiritual cleansing for my self, my wife does not understand it and worries, I have made it up to 62 hours so far, but I wish to make sure that I am in very good health and weight before I try to exceed that amount.
Now I'm sure you have tried and investigated and fasted, but the pain persists, I cannot disagree with seeing a Doctor, as viruses and the like are not out of the realm of possibility, there are also hermetic healing techniques, reflexology, pressure points to be manipulated,
I cannot go into detail about these techniques here, but researching these subjects are also worthwhile, although I tend to give my soul great latitude in what it wants for me, I also have to go to the Doctor once in a while for preventive maintenance, or at least until I have greater control over my body.
This will be a few thoughts of mine about enlightenment, enlightenment could have a variety of meanings according to what you look up and where, over 20 years ago, I had a friend mention to me that he did not appreciate me calling him at exactly 11:11 because when he hears the phone ring and he looked at the clock, it showed 11:11 and he viewed this as evil.
I didn't understand his reasoning, so I started to investigate this number and it's meaning, most of what I found was the opposite of what he thought, it was considered a call to enlightenment, it was strange because ever since he mentioned it and brought it to my attention, I would start to see this number everywhere, on receipts from stores, restaurants, bank receipts and especially when I would happen to look at the clocks in my home,
what did this mean? What is it trying to tell me? I was really clueless at this point, I thought my friend had passed some weird curse to me that was going to slowly drive me insane.
After some more research I began to realize that It wanted me to do something, so I started to enlighten myself about everything possible, every little question in my head that puzzled me, I would begin to study as to learn more.
I am a fairly logical person and the thought had crossed my mind that possibly I had been doing this to myself subconsciously, that is, was my own internal timing that was seeking this number in some bizarre way? but why? I would ask myself, for what purpose? I had no good answer except for the purpose of learning something.
Well the business I was working for at the time was closing and I would soon be out of a job, the owner disconnected the time-clock and of course, it ended at 11:11. I got another job and continued to see this number in every imaginable situation. Emails that I sent, emails that I received, voicemails the coincidences were heavily unbalanced where it was no longer possible for me to be the sole cause of what I was perceiving,
so I began to make a game of it, so each time I would see this number, I would say a prayer or I would do a search for whatever happened to be on my mind in that moment. This continued for at least 20 years until I consciously felt that the obsessive number had stopped popping up, it ended when I began writing my thoughts down for this website.
The number did not exactly discontinue completely, but probably decreased by 90% where it could now probably be considered coincidence when I see it. Still, SEEK AND YE SHALL FIND is a very important part of my life and I still continue to this day looking for that particular pattern or puzzle piece that may answer that nagging question, whatever it may be.
Overall of my years of study and exploration of the meaning of life, I have discovered a couple of simple things, do unto others as you would have them do unto you, meaning treat people as you would wish to be treated and live and let live.
You can have your own beliefs and you can tell others of your beliefs, but forcing someone to believe as you believe will not work as that would create an imbalance, because God's free will would be circumvented and the oppression would result in negative outcomes.
If you are an atheist, it doesn't mean you are a bad person, a bad person is someone that does bad things. If you believe your beliefs are the only true way to be, that is your right to think this way and should not be condemned, you should be allowed to think as you wish and practice your religion as you wish,
but if you think that your beliefs are the only true way to believe and all others that don't believe as you do should die, just this thought alone will cause an imbalance and acting on it by killing, further increases the imbalance not only by oppression but by robbing others of their chances to worship as they please.
My God and most peoples God is a loving merciful God, a God that will guide you if it believes your beliefs are in error, after all, God has given us all free will, but that does not include the suppression of other's free will,
God has given us life, it does not give anyone the right to take that away. If you believe that it is your right to take vengeance on someone because they do not believe as you do, you have been deceived, and your God is not a loving and merciful God, but something else,
and if you are able to read this on the internet, then you have the ability to read other literature and you also have the ability to be enlightened to the one true God's purpose.
Belief is belief and intention is the intention, strive to keep these true and just, and God and or your conscience will guide you to enlightenment.
I have been said and it is believed by many that everything that happens in life and on our planet is predestined,
at first, I thought this was wrong because God had given us all free will, and this would imply that our lives and our free will had no meaning, no cause, and effect, only prearranged outcome,
then I thought it was a challenge, and I said to myself...CHALLENGE ACCEPTED, I don't care to be thought of as being predictable, so I figure that I will start this website, after all, it was meant to be...
Now all of the people that come to this site, that read what I have to say were destined to do so anyway, this is a new power I have, fulfilling my destiny by preaching peace and love and tolerance,
when I thought it was my idea to refuse to accept rape and slavery and torture as being an acceptable practice ever, in fact, it was my destiny to tell people that these things are against the one true God's laws and good common sense because they deny free will to the victims.
So now all of the people that come to this site and learn of peace and love and have changed their lives because of it were destined to do so anyways....How liberating to know that what you are doing, ends up having to be done anyways free will or not.
In my opinion, the only things in our lives that are predestined are the challenges that we must meet in order to be enabled to have a chance to balance out what we have upset in our life or in our previous lives,
these challenges or tests will lead us to decisions that we will have to make, that exercises our free will, and if we have learned enough and have gained enough wisdom, the outcome should be for the positive.
Now it has been over a year since I have written the above statements, I feel that I should leave them as they are even though I have learned much, my knowledge has accelerated greatly and I have learned so much that my views of life have expanded or evolved to where the truth has become more available to me and there are many realizations that I have come to acknowledge,
there is the large amount of literature that I have absorbed and the understanding of that seems to be the vehicle to my increase in wisdom, which in turn seems to have transformed me into something much greater than I was,
I have split, I have shed the skin of my ignorance to be able to perceive so much more than I ever could, I have included many new chapters in my evolution on this site so that others may find what I have found,
the truth is truly liberating, leaving all of the Maya and dogma behind from all of the superfluous bling and drama and superstitions, is a weight that held my soul from being liberated for most of my life,
my beliefs have been streamlined to just the truth and the reality of all of our existence, unfortunately, this has happened so late in my life, I feel that this would have been so much greater if it happened 25 years ago,
but also I have found that I currently have such a greater advantage over the majority of the human race since I have lived so many lives and my bio computer has been programmed to enable me to seek as I have done,
others will have a much harder time trying to accomplish what I have been programmed to do, they will be younger with their senses and emotions taking the reins, they will have to be driven to excel,
but even though they may not complete what they set out to accomplish, they still will have that small amount of wisdom carry over to some extent to their next life, and will have a foot up on the others in their same situation.
As long as the knowledge is out there and is available for all to find, the seekers will make sure that it is understood and that others know this knowledge is essential for our race to evolve.
A large step in the continuation to the achievement of enlightenment is to realize that there is a Duality in humans that have to be totally controlled before any advancement can be made towards enlightenment,
I have detailed some instruction on this subject that has plagued humanity for many thousands of years when the false personality has been observed and controlled, the Ego will be such where the spirit will have the upper hand and control of your destiny will be yours.
Enlightenment is not an easy task, our lives as we have lived them have programmed us to be as we are now, we are dependant on material things and unwarranted desirous thoughts invade our minds,
there is a bottom line here and most people are not willing to approach it because of their programming, this bottom line is the rejection of most of the material reality as we now know it, to begin with,
the observation of our duality is paramount, just the changing of our general thoughts will be a big step, just this action can be enough to change you to realize what direction this will be taking you.
This enlightenment will be different for all people, there is no quick and easy way to do this, the change will come from within, depending on what you read, what you do and how you proceed to live your life, a less dependence on your 5 senses is a good start, don't give in to desire.
Now I have spoken of Atheism saying just because you do not believe in any sort of deity, that doesn't make you a bad person, this is most definitely true, but to reach a point of enlightenment that you may desire may depend on some sort of belief of higher or universal intelligence,
it does not need to be God per say, the Tao is not a deity, but an all-pervasive intelligence and can be of use, if you believe in nothing what so ever, if you believe that you are born, you live and then you die and it is all over, then there is no point in following these lessons in great detail,
if anything you should have a belief in YOURSELF, and as long as it is a positive belief, that is a step in the right direction, most of these lessons directed towards enlightenment, involve God or an all-encompassing intelligence that has created all that is and has given everyone free will to do and think as they wish, and has created all of mankind in its image, which means that we can do the works that this power has done and does.
What am I?
I have been around before the beginning of time, I was around when the sun and solar system was not even formed, the "BIG BANG" as science wishes to call it has happened more times than I care to remember,
I was created at the same time that all of the others like me were created.
I have a Father and I have a Mother which are really both and neither, my creator is so great that no one name can possibly do it justice,
it has been called God or Tao, but I shall refer to it as "All THAT IS", I have been sent from "ALL THAT IS" to learn all that I can in order to increase the knowledge of "I" and "ALL THAT IS",
I have made these sorts of trips many times, and I have gone to many Planets in many galaxies and have been many creatures and beings over and over again.
I will first start off scouting a planet by becoming some of the more simple things of the nonsentient variety in the mineral kingdom in order to get a feel for what is going on.
In my normal state, I do not experience time, as I am not corporeal, I do not age, and traveling through time is as common to me as taking a walk down the street is to you,
every step is another time on the line to eternity, but when I enter a 3 dimensional plane to occupy an object or thing, I have to obey the laws of that certain plane or should I say my object or thing has to obey these laws and I am able to observe and or experience what this object or thing experiences,
this is usually done without the thing ever even knowing that I exist, I can recall the billions of your years I have spent being a rock or mountain high above or deep below in an ocean,
observing life as it progresses and evolves, or a creature of land, sea or air in order to observe the sentient species that inhabit that particular sphere before I choose if I wish to become one of them,
and when I have made the decision to become one of these sentient species, I make this decision with about 1000 of my fellow fragments which are called an entity, we all begin these adventures together,
we are not the only group, as the universe is more expansive than you can imagine, it is the same above as it is below, we will combine 7 of our entities to form yet a larger group or Cadre, our numbers are infinite as we make up ALL THAT IS and our lives are usually spent more or less together without any of our occupied beings having any knowledge of our existence.
I have been a sentient plant life form, a sentient form of Sea anemone, I have been enormously huge and extremely small sentient forms and have lived and died hundreds and hundreds of times, in each of these sentient species yet I cannot be destroyed, I am able to experience all of the attitudes and emotions of these forms without any harm ever coming to me.
When we thought about coming to experience the Earth plane of existence, We started as trees and shrubs, we had the ability to "feel" each other as our connections were through the ether or as your science calls dark energy or dark matter and enabled us to feel the emotions of these humans that lived about us,
and then we progressed to almost every type of insect, I was once a mosquito that got trapped in sap from a tree and experienced existence as a piece of amber worn around the neck of a human, I was revered for my natural beauty this was my first experience with humans,
but I was not quite ready yet, I still wanted to try all of the cold-blooded fish and warm-blooded animals. I have hunted and I have been hunted, I have eaten and I have been eaten countless times,
I was once a Lion, where previous to the incarnation, I had made arrangements with a fragment occupying an early human to have an experience with this human, I had chased this human where he had fallen from a cliff while escaping my pursuit, his fellow tribe members had finally tracked me down to end my life,
some of my final experiences before I decided to become sentient was to be a common pet, a dog allowed me to observe the human experience more closely and to interact to further expand my experiences,
I had made another arrangement to occupy a common house cat that was owned by the same fragment that I had chased to his death in a previous live millennia earlier, I have now only existed under the laws of nature called cause and effect and have not had any responsibilities other than to exist and survive,
being pets or beasts of burden allowed me to see how humans treated the creatures of their planet.
Finally after countless millions of years I or shall I say We have decided to have the Human experience, this will be the most complex of our sentient experiences yet,
as being a Sea anemone, I was not able to build complex structures, but my mind was more complex as we communicated by telepathy, the same could be said for the plant lives that I was,
there was no spoken language, but all of our feelings were shared globally, when I was extremely large, there was a dexterity and agility limitation, as for being a Human, we eventually gained speech to communicate,
we had the agility to travel greater distances, and a large host of emotions that could cause many problems, I could no longer feel what others felt, we were more separate and misunderstandings were a continuous burden to our evolution.
The humans were for the most part ignorant of our existence and were more involved with their material conquests and their crude Dogmas that pertained to their perceived Deities,
they were mostly a hindrance that delayed their progress for the most part.
Humans continually fought over material gains and land all in the name of their Deities, they created such great cosmic imbalances that it would take many lifetimes to resolve their Karmas, I would take the forms of males and then females,
switching between as each life passed, I was of many nationalities, black, white, red, yellow and brown, they would fail to respect each other's beliefs and would deny others free will to suit their beliefs.
Even though over the many centuries technology increased greatly, the mind was not explored enough to realize our presence, there were some of our kind on missions to reveal our presence, but mostly ignorance and greed prevented any great progress,
humans just didn't realize that ALL of their planet was part of ALL THAT IS and that they and everything else was connected together,
our kind has put the humans through every test imaginable, every role, every emotion, every attitude, every feeling has been programmed into these humans to experience life in ALL of its aspects,
they, of course, have been given free will to do as they please, we even create circumstances as little tests throughout their lives to monitor the outcomes, to see if they know instinctively the difference
between their versions of right and wrong.
We do not feel hate or jealousy or any negative emotion that the humans feel, we only feel LOVE for ALL THAT IS, we cannot be sorry for what we do and how we do it, it is what humans would call "tough love",
they must "learn" to evolve, the humans have wars and kill each other over lands that are not even theirs, they do not allow each other to believe as they wish about what they wish, they acquire great wealth in the way of "things" that only cause them pain and suffering,
they do not realize that "Wisdom and Love" are the true riches that are to be acquired and cherished.
The humans think that their world's situation is sad, but they have made it this way, we cannot feel this way, we only know that this testing is necessary for the evolution of this planet to continue.
As soon as the humans realize that warring over beliefs and land only hurt their evolution, greed and oppression hinder their progress, jealousy and hate stifle they're well being, they will have a clue that we exist.
With wisdom and love, they will be able to lift the veil of ignorance to see who or what they really are, an integral part of ALL THAT IS, then and only then they will truly be conscience for the first time.
Right now, I am a Soul in a Human form and after I have learned all that I can on this planet, I will recombine with my other fragments to complete my entity,
then I shall come together with other entities on my journey back to ALL THAT IS, then I shall do it all over again on another planet in possibly another galaxy possibly more advanced than earth.
Possibly someday Earth shall evolve to a more advanced species and I may want to make my journey again to this planet with humans that have grown past their dogmas and hate, where love is the prevailing emotion and Truth is what will be sought after more than anything else.